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Q: "Random question I saw pictures of your decor (holy crap) where did you get the shower curtain? I've never seen anything like it."
A: Thank you! So it is Quiet Town! But now for the big sad, the color is discontinued - it works so well for my set up bc the color exactly matches all tile work in the bathroom. I absolutely love their sun shower line bc it gives the look similar to say having a shower door/window thing without actually having that. Makes a bathroom seem bigger, which can be helpful depending on size. Thanks for the unique ask :-)
Gorgeous scenes like the above will always make me think of quiet, ambient songs like this one... I love gentle and ambient music and it often plays in my head when I'm out in the woods. Hania Rani and the On Giacometti album have been like the find of the year...
Life Updates
I know I've been super quiet lately, so I wanted to post some updates as I know the initial views of this blog are going to be from those who already know me.
1.I have totally overcome my medical condition. It's a thing of the past. That bad flare of a few months ago was apparently one last big flare as part of my body 'adjusting' to becoming normal. Also - no cancer! I feel very lucky and grateful as I'm told my decision to go down the integrative medicine path lead to this outcome.
2. I did leave Chris behind and would appreciate it if everyone stopped asking about it. The cliff notes version is that I walked away because I'm highly independent and need to be in a relationship with someone who is not clingy and values their own independence. I love having things of my "own" outside of any relationship I am in (i.e. hobbies, experiences, trips, etc). Having someone who also feels that way is ideal. Another pain point was how quickly the relationship was moving and how public it was. Those of you close to me know how private I am about individual friendships and past relationships & how important independence is for me. Moving forward, I would love to be in something that is ultra private. Like for example, I deliberately didn't tell the world about a relationship I was in for a year because I just wanted us to have time on our own to build a strong foundation and to choose when, how, and if to go public together. I think in the social media world of today, people are just too public. There has to be separation between your life, your partner's life, your hobbies, career, job, etc… and which of those things you share publicly - and when. It's all about privacy & timing & self-control.
3. 2023-2024+ was totally my grief era. There were things I needed to grieve, but then I was also hit with the unexpected deaths of close friends my own age, also too many changes in my personal life at once, etc. All of that combined definitely led to some of my interactions and reactions being different than normal. Another big piece was, I sought "support" as anyone would do when confronted with grief and it just was not the right fit. I know it's been hard to understand why I've been so quiet, but transformation requires silence to do that inner work.It's been excellent getting back to normal, back to what I enjoy, and back to what matters to me.
Two things I wish I would have realized sooner: (1) That the change, as someone who values their independence, of going from being an independent contributor who can implement their "big ideas" to create lasting and impactful change to being in a role where you can't do that can be very jarring and trigger you to act in ways that aren't true to your independent nature. It leaves you feeling alien. There's absolutely an adjustment period for sure; you will get through it... & (2) What it would take as part of my grief era, as someone who was raised Catholic, to take responsibility for & learn to live with the fact that I'm bi and that it was something that has always been there…Someone very close to me put it well - "You are just about people and that's what it is. It doesn't need a label." I actually highly prefer this description.
Looking forward, I'm excited for the future, and am grateful for all the support I've been shown along the way.
P.S. - Thanks for all the reaching out re: my parents 40th wedding anniversary..for those asking about the gift, I got locations that were important over the past 40 years 3d printed as ornaments. I started with the place they met, the church they got married in, their first home, and current home. They loved it! Here's me holding the print of the church they got married in, in my hand so you can get an idea on size. You can also kinda see the print of their first home too, in the background on the left.
